This is 45 (now i'm 47)

I know people on either side

of the spectrum and it all feels

so real.

Babies and kids to be taken care of and

dreams to be lived

30’s and all is possible.

Memory lapsing, meds and

help doing anything

80’s and all is impossible.

I am in the middle and concerned with both

And new things

like my changing body

and more unpleasant doctor visits that no one talks about

or warns you of in advance.

And how to change careers

midlife

Or what to do if you haven’t lived all your dreams yet

But hope they are still possible

The truth that we are all heading towards falling apart like

an old car

and groundlessness is a reality of life.

Never has the need to love and choose compassion

felt so strong.